Well the year is coming to a close. I'm trying to find the words for this so lemme try it....
2023 wasn't any better than the last. My depression and financial troubles overwhelmed me even while I had a job, my relationship was rocky and I felt like I'll never be good enough, and worst of all: the sudden death of my mother. The last one hit me hard the most and I'm still grieving. While I never had a good relationship with her, I still know she always loved me, even if she had a funny way to show it. But it wasn't her fault. She been in pain her whole life and then that pain overwhelmed to her to point she just gave up and allowed her health to decline. I wished I had seen it before and tried to help but there's no use to wallowing on what could have or what should haves. Mom is no longer in pain and I hope she's at peace now. I need to focus on myself more now. I don't want to end up wallowing in bed feeling sorry for myself and letting my health, both mentally and physically decline. So I hope for the new year, I start improving myself. Exercise more, diet, even travel. Mom loved to travel and she always wanted to see the world. So I hope starting the new year and from then on, I get to go places more.
Another goal I'm hoping for the new year is being a better girlfriend to my bf @ThunderWolfang, whom we'll finally see in the coming week of January. I'm both nervous and excited to finally see him. We've been together for a long time and he's been there for me during the best and worst times. I love him so much and I pray our meeting will go so well.
And as for artwise goals, I want to keep creating for myself. Be it more fanart projects, new OCs and stories, and maybe improve my medium or move on from the crap I've been using in the past decade. Dunno about the latter but I still thrive to improve for myself because I really love to draw and share my ideas with everybody. And it makes me happy to share and connect with similar open-minds like mine, no matter what style or technique we use.
So in short, if I had a New Year's resolution: it be to keep living life.
To anyone reading this and those who have been my biggest support this year or the years before, I wanna thank you all in putting up with me through these difficult times. You've all been my inspiration to keep going even in my worst. I want to keep going for everyone. For my family, my friends, my fans, and for myself. And I hope you all meet your goals for the new year. Have a Happy New Year and let's all get through this decade together.
